Walking with God, hearing God’s voice and being His while learning not only from His word, but what He would say to us is exciting and life changing. We miss much restoration if we do not engage with His word and speaking voice.
I grew up in home where dad was mad a lot.
I fought back after a while because I felt the injustice of being treated this way. This means I learned to express anger and accusation against others, but only in my home. A very tender heart offset this. Those who did not live with me saw a tender heart. My family after I married saw both, and this confused them.
Over many years, God set me free from this terrible anger. Then my assistant and I hired people who felt they could just blast us with anger over work issues. To top this we hired a woman who acted viciously and would not take instruction without rebelling. We went to Human Resources and asked what we could do. HR gave us with rules for coaching meetings in our office. We did our best to carry out these with mixed success.We were bullied. This made it hard to hear God’s voice.
It was in the middle of this that I learned I got angry when people treated me this way. This was not acceptable to me. I also felt hurt, since I do all I can to adapt what we do to the needs of each employee. I go above and beyond for all of them.
One day in my quiet time with God, He spoke and changed everything. “You feel your own pain.” When He said this, I knew He meant the pain I felt was not from Him, but I chose it. “I brought you broken people to work for you so you might learn how people really are.”
Boy, did He ever. Yelling at us was a problem, but betrayal, rebellion, lying, gossip and many other things were a bigger problem. When He said this to me, I could see the faces of these difficult people and understood what He was doing. Each came with a different style, but the main challenge was the same.
God gave me broken people who were hurtful so I could learn how people are. He was curing me of my overly tender heart. Sometimes we show too much mercy, and it hurts us and others. God’s balances His mercy with His correction. We need this balance to raise healthy children and to oversee people.
Then He said, “Think of yourself as being in a science lab. You do experiments and observe outcomes. I want you to observe and be.” Understanding dawned at once about what He was doing. He wanted me to observe people’s actions but take no pain from it, no matter what they did or said. So hearing God’s voice and being in Him were His instructions.
I have written about being. He calls us to be in Him. Most of the time I “be” in Debra. Debra has faults. When I find my being in Him and let Him flow or live through me, the outcomes are supernatural. So, He was calling me to observe people and be in Him. This did not change what people were doing, but it changed me.
There is a common thread in the things I have posted for the last few months. That thread is hearing the voice of God. We hear Him in scripture, through sermons, through books written about Him, and we hear Him speak to our heart. We cannot hear Him if we do not spend time with Him. When we put aside busyness and make time with Him, our priority His voice can change us, and we need changing. Will you engage with Him who died so He could have an intimate relationship with you?
One who loves
He dies to set us free
from ourselves and others
so we might be His